Ever sense I started the matrix society web series Im always asking myself "is it worth it?".
what I mean is that I try so hard and with so many thoughts and worries. you people have no idea what kind of morbid trauma im suffering with.
you fail to realize that ill im asking for is some attention. to be in the spotlight. to display my personal vision to the world.
yet no one seems to respect my point of view or my strife. my desire to be a part of the next big break falls on deaf ears.
these blog posts such as the one I'm writing right now. I thought they would really make you think about all the people who have the talent to succeed but are refused the opportunity. people such as the likes of me.
I don't even get people saying the art I make and the matrix society episodes I upload suck. am I less popular than I think I am?
Am I really just some wannabe underdog it the eyes of the masters?
Am I really just some punk!?
I suffered through high school to get here today. So wheres my fill in life like I was promised. Why wont anyone give me a chance.
how come some people just need to let their hard work pay off while others just get freaking lucky!!?
Life is so unfair. everyones only out for themselves. what happened to the good old days of the internet when their was a sense of brotherhood. the golden age of the world wide web were everyone supported each other.
today we just have selfish ego stroking maniacs versus ego stroking maniac in an endless war based on who has the most favorites or money or views. forget about helping others right... because helping others is for people who aren't like the nostalgia critic.
I try to forge my own path but all I get are weird looks and the silent treatment online. why do people shun me simply for being unique and not conforming to other peoples stadards!! IM BEING MYSELF!!
were just supposed to sit down like good old boys and worship them as they stand atop unreachably high pedestals.
My main reaction is "Why do you get all the love in the world. wheres my time to shine, wheres my slot in the league of super critics"
also of note is that the reason I don't produce a higher quality show is that college is eating up a lot of my time. perhaps I should do less of a video series and more of a podcast....hmm.
that's all I have to say for now. if you want to prove to me that their are at least some good, supportive, altruistic people out there then you can support me on patreon.
yep I have a patreon. bet you didn't know that person who looks at my blog and just walks away with even giving me so much as a virtual pat on the back.
you can find my patreon page here>> http://www.patreon.com/coolbreeze88
I hope I earned your sympathy lovely viewing audience. I also hope you got to know me a little bit better. if this blog isint published then it confirms your just about as heartless as the big media were supposed to rebel against.
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